Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
James 1:12 NIV
Because in trials we discover ourselves and who we were meant to be.
I question myself: is it a sin to feel like I’m worth less than what I was created for? What kind of a defect am I that I deserve this kind of condition? Of the many years as a Christian did I actually do anything out of whack that I deserved this?
If it’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s to never trust that social facade put up by everyone we’ve all grown to be familiar with. Never believe in the plots and ploys of the devil to distract you from the real treasure from within.
I should do this, I should do that. I should try this and try that. Even I am confused by all these distractions. I tell myself to just smile and trust that we are all humans and are not perfect.
Jesus loves me but he also loves the world. How can I hate his people that here loves so deeply. I can only hope with the deepest recesses in my puny hopeful heart that they are sane.
Thank you Jesus for hearing my prayer.i beseech you to please show me your way of doing things and guide me well.
In Jesus’ name,